A couple of years after my separation from my husband, I ran into a couple that had been friends of ours at the supermarket.
I had said some things in the past, to the husband of that couple, it drove us apart as friends.
I was not living true to myself and who I was at the time when I said those things, and that was the worst part. The things I had said, weren’t even the way I felt, but the way someone else felt. Yet I was the one who said them.
I had felt horrible about it forever and had wanted an opportunity to apologize.
We stopped to chat, they were very friendly and wonderful.
I asked them about their kids, work, parents and their vacations, as long as they were talking I could keep it together… but if they asked me in return, my tears would flow. I’m talking full on, snot bubbling ugly cry.
This went on for half an hour. It was beyond painful as I kept trying to pull myself back together and falling apart.
Have you ever noticed that sometimes when you tell a story, you can be totally neutral, and other times telling the exact same story you will become emotional?
When you are surprised from the emotion, that’s an indication the person who you are talking to can help you heal in some way.
Sometimes it obvious and you already know how you need to heal, and other times it isn’t.
But don’t be surprised when it bubbles up, just try to stay with it until you get there.
Everytime you heal another little piece, you get to live a little more fully in the coming moments.