The amount of effort someone puts into a friendship or a relationship has always been a mystery to me.
I used to play into a hidden power struggle in many different types of relationships. I realize now that those were unhealthy relationships fuelled by codependency.
I have been in several friendships where I was the glue keeping it together. When I stopped making all of the effort the friendship completely disappeared, and it was hurtful to feel like they never cared.
Eventually I learned to allow others the space to be on their journey and that changed everything.
I’m learning to throw out invitations to see if the other person is interested. If they don’t want to show up, it’s ok.
I’m also learning to meet the amount of effort another person is contributing to our friendship instead of trying to make up for their lack of interest.
The more I am ok with myself…the less I chase friendships, I just allow them to be.
I used to hang on desperately to approval and acceptance from others, now I make an effort to always leave my heart open and love you as you are.
More importantly I have learned to share myself and my journey instead of hiding it.
I don’t expect others to make me feel good, but I appreciate it when they can.
If you want to be friends with me that’s awesome… and if you aren’t in a place where you can be friends that’s ok too.