Until a couple of years ago I would talk about my feelings like they were objects. I could make an argument for why I was feeling this way or that, and I would spend a lot of time trying to talk myself into feeling differently.
I didn’t realize I was doing this because I was intuitive and in touch with how I was feeling. I knew what felt good and what felt bad and I had learned to navigate towards what felt good.
If ever Needed to talk about my feelings I would shut off all communication with my heart and have a very candid conversation. If I didn’t do shut it down I would cry which makes my voice squeak, my face go red and blotchy, and my make up run. It wasn’t pretty so I avoided it.
We connect with others heart to heart. When you are moved by something someone says it’s because it comes from the heart. When you love a movie or a song or a piece of art it’s because it was crafted from the heart, not the head. When you have a meaningful conversation with someone it always involves the heart.
By shutting my heart down I was shutting down connection with others. When you don’t allow another person into your heart, you are energetically blocking them from caring about you.
I was pushing away all of the people I wanted to be close with because I was worried about my voice sounding funny when I spoke.
My energy lady said to me, “when you speak you need to talk about what’s in your heart, not what’s in your head.” That was one of the most valuable pieces of advice I’ve ever been given.
It’s messy to speak from your heart, but it’s always real and it matters because other people see you differently, and can connect with you in that space. That’s where the real you lives, and it’s the you we love.