I almost always feel insecure.
And I’m beginning to think it might be obvious as a friend of mine stopped by my office with a book about confidence the other day. I can’t wait to dive into that one.
I think most who spend time with me wouldn’t see me as insecure, but here’s the thing…
I used to spend my time hiding from hard things. I had a million excuses and justifications about why I wasn’t able to do XYZ yet, there is always a good reason not to do something if you want one.
But when I started this blog I decided that I was going to show up and showing up isn’t comfortable. It’s pretty uncomfortable actually.
I make spelling errors, I say things and then I change my mind, I share my weaknesses, and sometimes I hop on my soap box.
I would prefer to be perfect. I would prefer not to make mistakes, always have every hair in the right spot, and not react or say things I don’t mean. Perfection feels so much less risky, and so much more comfortable. If I was perfect I could never be criticized.
But I gave it all up when I decided to show up.
And now I walk around unsure and uncertain almost all of the time.
And I figure that it’s probably going to be that way as long as I keep showing up.
Showing up is a lot more interesting that hiding, and once you start to show up you get to see what you are made of and you get to chase your potential.
That sounds so much better then being perfect doesn’t it?