The energy lady that I use is amazing. She changed my life.
She does a combination of methods and is incredibly intuitive. One session with her is the same as 9 years in counselling.
Since I like fast, finding her was a home run for me.
She talks about being plugged in.
I was unplugged the first time I saw her 5 years ago, and she plugged me back in. My life was such a disaster, I would unplug almost immediately after walking out the door.
It took me a few sessions with her to understand what being plugged in was. She gets you to a place where you feel completely ok inside…grounded, peaceful, calm and clear. That’s when you are plugged in.
If it was a feeling I had ever known, I had forgotten it.
When I’m unplugged I can’t think clearly, there is a knot in my stomach and a lump in my chest. I feel scattered and at the end of my rope all of the time. These are the times my last nerve is exposed and someone finds it.
It’s awful to be unplugged. I push away the people I love and say things I don’t mean.
There were so many days of my life I couldn’t cope. I was overwhelmed and not ok, doing only what absolutely had to be done like a zombie on auto pilot. I would completely shut down emotionally.
Looking back now it feels like I wasted so many days simply surviving.
If I could give that person I used to be advice, I would take me by the shoulder and shake myself and say, “Jodi, whatever you think the payoff is for living like this it isn’t worth it. One zombie day is too much and it will surely lead to others. You need to wake up and make some drastic changes my dear, surround yourself with only people who lift you up, walk away from anything that dims your light, and always remember where you are now so you can be grateful for every step that isn’t this anymore. I’ll catch you on the other side, and thank you for giving me the chance to exist.”
They say once a horse “knows” okayness it will search for it…I can tell you humans are very much the same way.
I could not be the person am I today, living the life I was living.
But I also could not be the person I am today if I hadn’t scraped my way out of that life.
Now I know what being plugged in feels like, I get back to it as quick as possible. I will not waste another day unplugged and barely surviving again.