Valentines Day.
The day you are supposed to love and be loved by your special person, show it all day long, and if you’re lucky enough someone will reciprocate it back to you.
I spent the first two Valentines evenings of my new life alone at Costco.
It was hard to be “alone” when the day rolled around but Costco was a pretty neutral safe place to be while it seemed all of the people I knew were going to dinner and movies.
Time really does change things.
I’ve watched so many people feel like their significant other isn’t fulfilling their needs, and they spend years thinking about different ways to try to make them understand what they need.
I’ve done it. When I was feeling empty and unloved and my needs weren’t being met I had someone I could blame for it. And I did.
Until there was no one around to expect it from and no one there to blame when it didn’t show up.
There was only me.
The day I married myself, I stopped relying on someone else to fill my love tank.
And I learned that the more we rely on someone else to love us and look after us, the more it hurts when they can’t or don’t and we waste precious moments filled with hurt, blame and resentment towards them for when they didn’t or couldn’t show up for us.
The more we are loved and fulfilled by ourselves, the more we can be present to enjoy the time we get to connect with our loved ones or significant others.
I am sending my love out to all of you and sincerely hope you love yourself enough today to be able to receive it.❤️