I’ve always had neck and shoulder tension and tightness.
I’ve been a regular at the chiropractor for over 25 years, I’ve done acupuncture and massage and cranio sacral and reiki.
I love every one of the modalities and they all help me in their own way.
I have a book I reference when I have something recurring continuously, or a major malfunction.
When I looked up neck, it basically said it was tight because my head is always fighting with my heart.
This is so true about me.
My head was constantly telling my heart it was wrong and should be feeling differently.
I would tell myself it wasn’t ok to feel what I was feeling because I deserved to feel that way if I had done something wrong.
I would tell myself not to feel jealous, or rejected, or betrayed, or bitter, or resentful, or any emotion that seemed negative or self serving.
The book said this was the battle that was causing all of my problems in my neck and shoulders.
So I began honouring my heart and how it felt.
Instead of telling myself I was wrong to feel the way I feel… I would just feel it.
There was no harm in feeling these things, I didn’t need to act on them, or react because of them… I just needed to honour them.
And slowly but surely my neck and shoulders began to stay relaxed.
An interesting thing has happened lately.
My son is taking Science in Summer school and I’ve been helping him for a couple of weeks.
I haven’t done Science classes in over 20 years, but because I love to learn I thought I could learn this easily too.
Wrong!
It’s hard for me.
Half of the time I feel like my brain is swollen and going to explode.
I’m forcing so much in so fast and trying to keep up or even get ahead of the assignments.
Yesterday I noticed my neck and shoulders were tight again for the first time in a long time and that tension is also causing a sore throat.
I’m not surprised knowing how much time I’ve spent in my head lately.
Maybe I’m just building muscle because my brain has grown 3 sizes… or more likely the tension is from thinking too much and not feeling enough.
Either way, I’m going to start consciously opening my heart and listening to it, even though my brain feels like the needy one right now.
We will see if that helps, but if you see me walking in circles talking to myself with crazy hair like Einstein… forgive me I’m just becoming a mad scientist (hopefully temporarily).