Sometimes I fight it. Other times I dive in because I can’t help myself. There was one time in my life I remember taking a break from it. But I am always drawn back towards it no matter how I try to change my path.
I have this huge underlying drive to uncover all of the why’s and how-comes of life.
Is this normal or am I just a total nerd? I honestly have no idea.
Every once in a while I think to myself… Jodi, there are other things in life you need to know, so focus over here for a while.
I will buy a couple of books on a new subject, listen to some new podcasts, and always come back around to analyzing it through my lens and looking for the blocks, whys and how-comes.
The other day I wondered to myself … what is my major goal for this life?
I have always “loved” to the fullest.
Lots of times I was going about it backwards.
Some of the time I was making things worse instead of better.
Other times I’m sure I was smothering growth.
If I could “love more” or better than I do now and allow for growth in myself and the people around me and find a way to leave people in a better place than where I found them…that would mean a life well lived for me.
Can I save the world with my personal stories of mistakes, doubts, insecurities, and struggles?
I don’t really know, but it’s been a pleasant surprise to see how it’s saving me.