I haven’t been showing up here daily.
If you have been showing up daily, you likely have noticed that already.
I have not gone away but I was burnt out. On every level. And I just needed to take a step back from everything I was doing and change my scenery.
This blog has been incredibly cathartic and has taught me ridiculous amounts of stuff about myself, about life, about others, and about so many nuances within all of that.
I am just not thinking deeply about life at the moment because I just don’t have it in me.
I’ve noticed lately when I have noticed something I want to share that I’m not able to emotionally connect to it, which means you probably don’t emotionally connect to it either.
I have been through a long stretch of needing to be ok with myself and what I have to give.
I used to want to feel important and be needed, and thought that the result of that would make me more valuable.
Logically it made sense to me.
But I began to realize that I was teaching people that I could or would be all things, all of the time… and interestingly enough the result of that was that I was LESS valuable to others, but that pushed me to see my own value.
Something I desperately needed.
I started to see that I was capable enough, competent enough, and smart enough…. I started to see that I was enough and it was my choice to believe it, or to burn myself out trying to prove it to others
I chose to believe it.
And by choosing to believe that I am enough I have had to recalibrate my whole life.
So while I am busy recalibrating, and just being enough without killing myself, I will be showing up sporadically instead of every single day.
I hope you do too.
Just for today, allow who you are to be enough for the world.