I’m not exactly sure what happened yesterday.
There were almost 3 times more people stop by and read my blog than ever before.
I’m trying not to be freaked out, I mean ultimately this is what I want… But I think I’m much more comfortable at a slow and steady pace… And where in the world did you all come from?!
Interestingly, this has conjured up some memories from the past…
I competed a lot as a kid. I was extremely fortunate to spend my childhood on the back of a horse going to horse shows.
There is a skill progression to horse shows, just like other sports… My very last year as a youth I was allowed to go to the biggest quarter horse show in the world called The All American Congress.
The Congress is in Ohio, is approximately a 36 hour drive from home with the truck and trailer from home.
It was no small undertaking. Needless to say going to the Congress was an extraordinarily big deal for me. I had only been allowed to compete fairly locally up to this point, and all of the world champions and the best of the best would be there.
To make a long and wonderful story short, my horse Dex and I did very well. We arrived to the Congress as nobody’s, just there to do our best, with no expectations on us to win. We left as the reserve champions.
The day after the Congress championship, we had the team tournament, where the same riders competed.
This time the pressure I put on myself was lethal. I was terrified of being a one hit wonder. Terrified of people saying I only got lucky the day before and didn’t deserve the placing I had received. I was sure I could hear “who does she think she is” playing in their heads.
So I proved those voices right.
I bombed. Bad.
Today I feel a glimpse of that same pressure from all of those years ago. The fear of conceding to the curse of the lucky one hit wonder.
Having so many people show up to read my blog yesterday felt like a huge win for me. Thank you. Thank you so much.
I don’t know what to write about today. I don’t want to turn people away by bombing again and saying something that has no impact.
It has been said, don’t let the fear of what could happen, make nothing happen.
So here I am, showing up anyway, “making something happen”… Even if we go nuclear.