6 months into my single life I had a family wedding to attend, and I was a nervous wreck about going on my own.
Everybody was going to have somebody… and I wasn’t going to have a somebody with me.
Who would I sit with?
Who would I talk to?
Who would I lean on when I was left by myself?
Being married had given me a false sense of security about all of these social conundrums.
My idea of marriage was that I had a partner, a team mate, a constant companion and someone to lean on…that was my security blanket.
Without it I felt alone and scared to be alone.
The truth was that nothing had changed except that the universe had made what was already reality, official.
I never truly had a partner, team mate or constant companion…that wasn’t how my marriage worked… I just wasn’t able to see the truth through my own insecurities.
Fear sets in when we perceive we are about to lose something we thought we had.
I have learned that the things we truly have we can never lose.
If I had a sense of security on my own, I would have never been afraid to go to that wedding alone.
If you have confidence in your ability to make money, you wouldn’t fear losing the job.
When you know inside your heart that you are enough, there can’t be anything taken away from you that will put you into fear because the only things we can lose are the things that were never really ours to begin with.