I want to take every single person who has left a footprint in my heart and gather them all up together.
These almost perfect, but still delightfully human people would be dancing, and laughing outside in the evening while eating healthy snacks and drinking room temperature water. It would be warm, instead of white, with all sorts of patio lanterns and live music and we would all be in our bare feet.
Every person would be focused on small acts of kindness for the others all night, and I would have 1000s of soft gingerbread cookies to hand out (which would make me the most popular person because the only other thing there to eat would be healthy snacks).
All of these people would love each other as much as I love them and there wouldn’t be one bitter comment, one off putting remark, or one selfish act the whole time… just all sorts of exploding love and joy everywhere.
And we would also need to have animals there.
This time of year has always been so special to me because it is magical and this would be the perfect way for me to spend the holiday season.
If there is anything I’ve learned the last few holiday seasons it’s this…
I could get myself all wound up focusing on the fact that it’s cold and snowy and nobody would explode with joy at a party with only healthy snacks, warm water and gingerbread cookies. I could work myself into a temper tantrum because everyone I love didn’t choose to be with me. I could go into a full depression because my Christmas wasn’t going to fulfill my dream.
Or I could just change my focus.
Christmas and the holiday season isn’t about me.
It’s not about what I want and forcing everyone else into my version of that.
I’ve learned to let it unfold as it may, and watch for the magic in that.
I’ve learned to appreciate that everyone has a different idea of what is right for them.
I’ve learned that if I get an ounce of what my perfect version is then I’m blessed, and if I don’t come anywhere close to it, I’m still blessed.
I’ve learned that I have the whole year to connect with all of the people I love and I am learning that I need to not let time slip by without making an effort to connect.
I’ve learned to appreciate all that I do have, and not worry about what and who I don’t have.
I’ve learned that the reason I suffer is because I focus on myself.