Over and over and over again we reiterate how things are uncertain and how life as we know it has changed.
I’m fascinated to watch how we are reacting to this.
I don’t know what it’s like to be you right now and I don’t want to make assumptions as we are all solving problems at different levels right now.
But I’ll let you know how I am reacting..
I am scared, and emotional, and lonely, and resistant, and confused, and struggling, and fragile, and powerless.
And at the same time I’m a little bit brave, a little bit hopeful, a little bit “seize the day”, and a little bit excited for how things can be rebuilt and restructured.
I feel a little bit of shame for some of those feelings, and a little bit of guilt for not being able to do it all.
I want to find the humour, I want to find the grace, I want to find the hope, and the silver linings, and I want to find the confidence to do the right thing.
But as I have written several times in the past… wanting something only emphasizes how we are separate from it.
I go back and forth between all of these emotions from the moment I wake up, and by 4:00 I feel like I’ve run a marathon.
I’m learning a lot about myself, and I’m learning about other people right now.
I have seen new friendships and bonds as we figure things out, I have seen greed and ego rule, I have seen some “look out for number 1”.
I have seen conflicting loyalties, I have seen things I don’t want to see, and I have seen “look out for each other and help each other” (more of this please).
We are in this together, but we each still have our own story.
Be sure to listen because there are a lot of stories driving everyone’s experience, and they need to be told.