I truly believe everything happens for a reason, which means I do believe we manifest everything in our life in one way or another.
All of the crazy things that have happened in my life have been because I was not ok inside and couldn’t easily find joy in my life.
I became very sick in grade 6. I missed 7 weeks of school. It was at a time I didn’t feel like I belonged anywhere. I felt like an outcast to the point where I became one.
I rolled my truck when I was 17.
I don’t remember all of the events leading up to it, but I know on that particular day I was feeling very alone and disconnected.
I fighting with my best friend and my boyfriend.
I went home for lunch because I didn’t feel like I had anywhere else to go, I remember not wanting to go back to school for the afternoon.
I rolled my truck on the way back to school.
Shortly after separating with my husband I took the kids to Osooyoos for a hockey tournament. I had never taken the kids away on my own before and I felt completely ungrounded and unplugged the whole trip.
I didn’t put insurance on my rental vehicle and then backed it right into a pole.
There are countless other injuries, illnesses, and accidents that I’ve had as a result of being more afraid than happy.
Major accidents are no accident, they are a sign or a wake up call that things are seriously derailed and need attention before they get any worse…because they do get worse.
These big painful events have caused me to pay much more attention to the little nuances that things are falling apart knowing I ignored many signs leading up to them.
Like Ken Kasey said, “when you lose your laugh, you lose your footing”.
I am learning to be extra cautious in life when I feel like I’ve lost my laugh.