So there we sat.
She looked me square in the eye and said, “when you love someone with a heart that is already broken, it’s like you keep trying to fill it up for them, but it just keeps leaking out the bottom.”
And that’s when I began to understand, you can’t love someone enough.
Until that point, I believed loving someone “enough” would heal their broken heart.
Looking back on my relationship history, it is apparent I chose people that I thought would be healed from my big, loving, generous heart.
The problem is, if they don’t believe they are loveable, it is impossible for them to accept love. Their personal belief prevents it and you can’t love that out of them.
I couldn’t see that from the inside.
I always heard that a relationship isn’t 50/50… It’s 100/100. So when things weren’t working I would try to give more.
But no matter how loving I was, or how hard I loved, it went unappreciated, rejected and ignored, or at best it was taken for granted.
So I would try even harder. Love more. Hoping to prove my own philosophy to myself.
Sitting there that day, hearing those words, changed everything.
That started the unravelling.