You can learn so much about yourself by listening to your self talk. Your self talk will show you your limiting beliefs, where you self sabotage, why you are reacting the way you are, and why you are allowing certain behaviours to continue.
We are so used to the stories we tell ourselves that they happen without our noticing. Our self talk is so ingrained that it happens automatically. We can shut ourselves down before we ever start.
Notice what you say to yourself when you come close to the things you want.
There is a mysterious world inside yourself, and your self talk is one of the keys to unlocking it.