When I was in survival mode, just getting through the days was exhausting.
I was carrying so much emotional baggage and burdened by the world it weighed me down and made every step forward hard.
I spent ridiculous amounts of mental energy racking my brain for solutions only to find myself buried deeper in fear of how it would never get better because things remained the same year after year.
There were always good moments to be cherished, and I was determined to make the best of where I was at and what I had… but a hard life was made even harder by the heaviness of mistakes and bad choices.
The glimpses of light I got were almost immediately squashed and snuffed out by drama and chaos.
It’s an awful way to live.
It took completely restarting to turn it around.
One by one I began to remove the baggage off my shoulders, until finally I started to see areas in my life that I could trust would be ok.
It wasn’t until I had built this foundation for myself that I could begin living and exploring the things that lit me up inside.
I started to notice what lifted my spirits and what energized me.
I began paying attention to the things that I would be doing and lose track of time.
I took note of the conversations where I would jump in with much to contribute, and what themes I was constantly drawn back into while learning.
Now I’m able to focus most of my life and free time toward those things.
Now I feel like I have something special to me.
“I think it’s beautiful the way you sparkle about things you love” ~ Atticus
Do you know what makes you sparkle?